Monday, June 13, 2011

Uncertainty...

Living in the moment is a beautiful thing, forgetting about the past nearly impossible, and looking to the future is daunting sometimes.  I really don't know a great way to do any of the three, but right now it is on my heart to write about it, so I am going to do best to stay in the moment for the next ten minutes or so.

Lately, I have been dealt a few critical blows in my structure of life.  I lost things that seemed to me to be irreplacable, and to a certain extent, I believe I was right.  Fortunately, I can use my personal losses to the benefit of my relationship with Christ.  I do not know where I would be without him right now.  I could be wallowed up in a hole right now, drowning my emotions in liquid courage, but I am hanging onto Christ's love to afford me a better future.

The past is something that I cannot afford to forget.  It is precisely what got me to where I am right now.  I am going to be brutally honest right now, I can see how God is using this to make me a better man right now.  I am not my past, but I hope to never go back to that place, and with the God of my understanding, I do not have to.

The future is a void.  It is like walking through a cave.  It will take me a long time to see precisely what the future has in store for me, but I do know that no matter what, I want to be an active part of it.  The key to my future right now is putting my God before my judgement because left to my own devices, I found a sinkhole in my life that I climbed down into.

This summer is full of hope...

Blake

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